SOME THINGS I BELIEVE

              "The journey to Selfhood is a life long trek"
                                                          Nancy Dreyfus, Psy.D.

I KNOW, I KNOW! I can get all ranty! (it's a word cause I SAID) I know that I bitch and moan. (a lot) And, I definitely know that I try to put a funny spin on things. (by funny I mean inappropriate)
But I honestly believe that being "GOOD" people doesn't mean you have to be boring! I also think we need to get real with ourselves and our definition of good.

I LOVE my soapbox! I love a good rant! And I LOVE to throw my opinions out there. But, they are just that...mine. At the end of the day, I don't care if you agree with me. And if you have a different view, let's talk! Maybe I will walk away thinking you're crazy!  But, I may get a different perspective, and decide that my views have changed a little. Either way it doesn't matter. We all have our own journey. We have to do it OUR way. We just don't have to beat other's up for doing it theirs. My eight year said to me once that "the great thing about people is that we are all different". RIGHT ON girlie!

I have this continuous battle inside me. I want to be so above it all. (by all I mean the bullshit) But, guess what?? We are ALL emotional beings. Telling someone to "get over it" is a crock of crap. Maybe that's the problem with us all? We need to FEEL things and not be told they are wrong. We are above some things, but others are going to get us every time. And my "THING" will be different than yours. It doesn't make either one of us wrong. It makes us human. We will never truly be "above it all", because by doing that we rob ourselves of feeling. Good or bad, feelings are a HUGE part of who we are. EMBRACE them! Just don't get all postal on us!

When together, my sister and I play a game. It's called can you believe they are wearing that!? We keep it to ourselves, we don't yell out "HEY UGLY! Those shoes do NOT go with that! That would be completely bogus. There is a difference between talking ABOUT something/someone and running around being a GOSSIP FACE. People say, don't judge. Everybody judges, it's an unfortunate part of being human. But, again, there is a difference between me telling my sister that home girl has horrible pants on and doing something like this ~ HEY HOME GIRL! You have the ugliest pants on I have ever seen. YOU SHOULD (I hate the you should) NEVER, EVER wear those pants again! HEY EVERYBODY! Do you see home girls pants!? MAN, those are UGLY! Blah, blah, blah.   And with this rambling...my point is...that you are also not above your own set of bullshit.
By the way, I know people are talking about my attire. (Including my sister) I live in sweatpants and running clothes. I know I could use help from the fashion police.

How about this? How about you don't ever tell another living being what they should believe?  Society has "decided" who the freak shows are and what's the right way to live YOUR life, right? Because in order to be accepted and seen as good you have to be on the right side of that line drawn in the sand, right? I say FUCK THAT. In my opinion, it's not the fact that we have different beliefs that's the problem. It's the fact that we believe people CAN'T have a different belief system than us. If people aren't hurting other's, I don't see why we care. BELIEFS are something you will NEVER change in another person. (thoughts and views, maybe. But never beliefs) SO GET OVER IT!

In my last little outburst. (I know, I've been all over the place) I simply want to confess. I am frequently wrong. I do stupid stuff. I am controlling. (ask my husband) I find myself bitching too much (ask my husband) I can hurt people. I'm more comfortable with anger then sadness. I have a big mouth. (ask anyone who has EVER met me) And the list goes on and on.  So many times I react, often ridiculously, only to throw the situation around in my head until I come up with something different. That's why I am addicted to self-help books. I just want to do better, be better, act better. And sometimes I'll say fuck it. I'm totally in love with some of my "faults". Some of them are SUPER fun.  I am trying to teach my children this ~ Don't intentionally hurt people. Live life being YOU. Test boundaries and be inappropriate at times. Just know that you will have consequences that you must endure. And at the end of your life, if you have done more good than bad...you've won, and so has everyone else around you.

SO THERE! Here are some of the things I was thinking about while running today. Well, those things and cake...but I couldn't work the cake in there anywhere!